I would settle for just plain broken

I pace these stacks looking for forgotten trash and misplaced thoughts.

Searching for something not here

Turning in circles—

please don’t stare.

(Dont look at me like that

If you felt this way you’d do it too)

crumpled together in my hands,

i can’t hold this much.

(and i’m sorry you can’t either)

touch and go and touch and go

don’t tell me “no.” i’m trying to learn.

i wanna know

i don’t wanna know what it feels like to quit

shit.

i always forget how to escape.

running away from razor blades and fake smiles;

i can never get enough air.

my heart is tired,

and my life is a long,

exhausted sigh

from breathless lungs who have tried too hard for too long

to keep inhaling.

enoughisenoughisenough

If you never hear from me again,

it’s not because I didn’t want to meet you;

i just got tired along the way.